August 21, 2008

Peace

I don’t know what’s going to happen today.  Duh.  But I’m unexpectedly at peace right now, inside. 

The scripture that came to my mind was from Philippians 4:6 and 7:  Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus. 

That’s beautiful!  And it’s true for me today.  And hopefully tomorrow, as well.

A friend from college found my blog.  He sent me a note and part of it read “…Keep in mind that God is currently behind the scenes putting things back together better than they were before you entered this mess.  Remember Jeremiah 29:11.” 

See, I love that verse.  I love the promise that God knows the plans that he has for me, plans to give me a hope and a future.  And when you read the verse in context, it’s all about how the nation of Israel is going into exile, but encouraging them to have hope because God has planned a beautiful future for them. 

Hello, I can relate to going into exile (even though I don’t know what will happen today).  And I can embrace the promise of God to give me hope and a future.

Last night I was putting Wild Thing to bed, and was snuggling him.  Something that I said made him giggle, and he repeated it and started laughing.  We laughed and laughed together, with him snuggled into my shoulder, my forehead nestled against his warm neck.  It wasn’t planned or anticipated, but it was a very sweet moment with my son.  When I put Ladybug to bed I held her, and looked into her eyes, and told her how much I love her and that I will always love her.  I was solemn.  She giggled and replied, “Oh, I had a very quiet burp.”  Some moments just don’t work out.  Some do.  These are my children, and I love them, giggles, burps, and all. 

I was reminded today through this post of how much God loves us as his children, and that “the heart of a mother reflects the heart of God.”  I believe it’s even more than that.  I believe that God loves me and delights in me even more than I love and delight in my children.  Unfathomable, but true.  But the best way for me to understand how much he loves me, is by understanding my own depths of love for my children. 

I would do anything for them.  And God has done everything for me.  No matter what my future holds, my future in Christ is assured. 

14 comments:

Fay said...

Your blog has been a much needed reminder to cherish every moment with my family. I hope that you feel God's comfort and peace today.

Denise K. said...

I'm thinking about you Mercy...and praying that all is well.

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madrekarin said...

I was so hoping that they would see how hard she tried to make amends for her mistake. I can only imagine the devistation that her family is experiencing right now. Please, if you are in contact with them, let them know that they are in my prayers still, and especially Mercy. I am sorry that her voice will be silenced for so long and that her family will be without her for what will feel like an eternity.
What a sad, sad thing.

emily said...

Oh wow. When I saw that there was no post to update last night, I feared the worst. I feel sick right now...we will miss your voice here, Mercy. But that is certainly nothing in comparison to the loss you and your family are struggling with.

Fitting that your last post is entitled "Peace". I pray that for you tonight.

Anonymous said...

Oh, I am so saddened to hear this news. Mercy was such a gifted writer, and I kept hoping she would slowly reveal more of herself and who she was. Does anyone know the extent of what her crime was, and if she does have to serve time, if indeed the post from anonymous above is accurate? I hope she will be able to get word to us somehow, and know that we are all praying for her. God bless you Mercy.

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Denise K. said...

Mercy, I am so sad to learn of this news. I kept checking your blog today hoping for the very best outcome...From how you described your family, I am certain they know how loved they are, and I hope you find peace in that you are loved unconditionally by them as well. If anyone is able to post any updates on Mercy, I hope you will do so...I would like to be able to follow her story and for her to know her blog readers care. Just as Emily said, I pray for peace for you tonight as well Mercy.

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emily said...

Mercy's cousin - It would certainly be a blessing to have updates...if the sentence is reduced, if there is anything we can do to help.

I want to respect her privacy but am also so moved by her remorse and story of hope and redemption in the midst of terrible loss and regret.

Again, we don't expect details or names or anything like that...just an opportunity to continue to support her somehow. I hope this makes sense.

rose said...

Mercy's cousins: Emily said it best. I am among the readers of Mercy's blog and her way with words touched my soul and heart. I would truly love to pray for her at this very time and know how she is doing.

Anonymous said...

I have been so saddened by Mercy's plight and yet it has given me such a sense of urgency about my own life. I am determined to live more fully, experience more deeply, love more passionately, and show compassion and love more consistently. Mercy, in the short time I have followed her blog has given me such a gift. Her truth and reality have given me a wellspring of insight that I might not have had without her. I will appreciate life to a greater extent because Mercy showed me how. I hope she knows how much good her struggle has done and how through her blog, it will not be in vain. You will be sorely missed until your return, dear Mercy.

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Anonymous said...

I hope we can be allowed to send her correspondence. Through her struggles she has been such a beacon of faith and hope for me. I would love to be able to try to do the same for her. After all, isn't that what being a part of God's family is all about... lifting each other up and sharing burdens. Hopefully, knowing that people care, even people who don't really know her, will help her get through what she has to endure. I'll be checking for updates. Thank you, Mercy's cousin. I don't know what I would have done not knowing what the outcome had been. I think it would have made me crazy wondering.